well it was not always my username. when i joined livejournal i signed up under seeamphuh, it was a pet name Shannon had given me. we had been together for eleven years when she unexpectedly passed away. i went online for the first time the day after she passed away. i knew she had friends online who would want to know what had happened to her. so i went online under her journal and gave everybody the news. a few of her friends suggested i should get a journal so they could keep in contact with me. it seemed appropriate to use the name she had called me for almost the entire time we were together.
a couple of years later, a new spouse, a new baby, well it seemed time to change my name. i wanted a name that reflected how i was changing and who i want to be. purple has always been my favorite color but it is bold and outspoken. i wanted to become something a little softer, a little calmer, i felt like i was on the eve of a new me. the last four years has brought more change than i could have imagined and i still feel like i am discovering myself, lavender_eve suits me.
on another note, i am ever so grateful to the strangers who reached out to me through livejournal and became my friends when i had no one. i was so lucky to have found so many good people that day when i went online.
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Date: 2008-05-02 04:12 am (UTC)a couple of years later, a new spouse, a new baby, well it seemed time to change my name. i wanted a name that reflected how i was changing and who i want to be. purple has always been my favorite color but it is bold and outspoken. i wanted to become something a little softer, a little calmer, i felt like i was on the eve of a new me. the last four years has brought more change than i could have imagined and i still feel like i am discovering myself, lavender_eve suits me.
on another note, i am ever so grateful to the strangers who reached out to me through livejournal and became my friends when i had no one. i was so lucky to have found so many good people that day when i went online.